“I JUST WANT TO GET PAID TO BE WHO I AM!”
My client (a teacher) said in exasperation. “I’ve been at this game for over ten years, and I’m tired of the performing, and showing up in the form that everyone else wants. This isn’t sustainable. I’m exhausted. Can’t I just be me?”
I was listening deeply, trying to find the thread of what it was that was holding her back from letting go of other people’s expectation.
And there it was.
Inside the longing inside her voice, and the tone in which she spoke, I could hear the fear – that little girl inside – who wants to be liked, who wants to be accepted, and who isn’t sure that she – just as she is – is good enough.
“I’m not good enough.”
“I’m not enough.”
“I’m not….[insert the thing that stops you from truly stepping in].”Call them limiting beliefs, conditioning, gremlins, whatever…we all have them, no matter who we are and where we are in our journey.
But knowing them, bringing awareness to them is the KEY to then being able to shift them.
And when you shift that stuck-ness…that’s when you finally allow yourself to do what it is that you’re truly desiring.
For this client of mine, how she wanted to show up in the world was different than how she’s been expected to show up in the world. But once we finally cast some light onto that, she started to allow herself to change. To be seen in the way that she wanted to be seen.
Just as she is. For who she is.
And through this process – which…by the way…involved her unraveling her story (because I can’t write without reminding you that your story is the key to your business + personal transformation), she was finally able to create a business that was based off of her own unique talents.
Was it scary? YES. She’s still scared of what others will think.
Is she doing it anyway? YES. Because at some point the pain of staying small and contained is greater than the potential fallout of TRYING.
And did it work? Is she making money? YUP. In fact…she’s facilitating, hosting sold-out workshops, and she messaged me last week to say a corporate company is paying her 4-figures to come and speak for a couple of hours.
To show up as she is. To get paid for who she is.
That’s what I call freedom.
I’m curious, if you were able to move through the things that hold you back, what would you be doing? How would be showing up? What would freedom look like for you?