Chasing Money


For many years, money shaped what I was willing to do for work. It was the driving force behind my career choice, and I made many decisions based on financial impact. I directly associated money with success, and believed that when I reached a certain income level, I’d be happy.

If I was offered a new job, it had to pay more than my existing job. It was all about the numbers, and I pushed aside any little thoughts under the surface that said things like:

“You’re stressed out enough. Why do you want more responsibility?”

“This isn’t the right job for you.”

“When will you see your kids if you‘re working 50 hours a week?”

It wasn’t until I was involved in a near fatal car accident that I really started to look at the relationship between money and my happiness. Faced with some serious symptoms of post-traumatic stress, there were days I couldn’t get out of bed. I’d become somewhat incapacitated and wasn’t able to work as much as usual. And because of that, my business suffered financially. Being a one-woman show meant that if I wasn’t working, then money wasn’t coming into the business.

But after having a brush with death, I noticed that my first thoughts were not around money. Or about how much I should, or could, be making. In fact, my thoughts sounded more like this:

“Am I living the best possible life?”

“Have I done the things I set out to achieve?”

“Am I the mother I want to be, the wife I want to be, the person I want to be?”

And the answers to those questions was no. I’d wanted to travel. I’d wanted to be the kind of Mum who‘s happy and joyful and creative. And most of all, I wanted to feel like I was living my purpose. But I wasn’t doing any of that. I was always putting it off. “What exactly was I waiting for?”

That’s the line that cycled continuously in my head. What am I waiting for? During that time, as my bank accounts were taking a serious hit, I gave myself permission to do some deep healing. I began to build myself back from the inside out (instead of from the outside in). I gave myself all the space that I needed to heal, and to get back to being me.

I wanted to know exactly who I was and what I was meant to do in this world

One day, after about three months of this, my accountant called me, “Becky, your business is taking a real hit from your being off. You’ve made 50% less this quarter than previous quarters.” I burst into tears. “I know, it’s bad,” he replied. Then I started to laugh. I wasn’t crying because I was sad, I was crying because for the first time in my 38 years, I’d realized that money didn’t make me happy.

All those years slogging away in the corporate world for my nice paycheque. I’d been chasing something that would never lead me to what I really wanted. There I was, feeling more connected to myself than I had in a long time, but with a lot less money than I was used to. I realized that money wasn’t going to make me a better mother. And it most certainly wasn’t going to bring me fulfillment. But happiness was finally within my reach.

That’s when I swore that I’d never trade my soul for money ever again.

Which meant, in order to stay true to me, I needed to do work that was 100% aligned with who I am. Work that was connected to my inner spark, my soul’s calling, my divine purpose. My WILD.

I’ve since learned that it’s our creative pursuits that fulfill us, sustain us, and keep us connected to our innermost selves. When we align who we are with our work, that’s when we truly come alive. And the best part? You can still make money.

Create a business that aligns 100% with who you are,and a profitable business will flow out of that

Money and happiness can coexist together. I just had the equation backwards. And now that I know otherwise, I’ve learned that when I put my focus and attention on building from the inside out—through my purpose first—the money will come. And it’ll flow in such a way that’s sustainable and rewarding. Using this model, money comes from an energetic place. Because it’s tapped into something infinitely resourceful – YOU.

That’s what I mean by “monetize your wild.”

How about you? What insights have you discovered about chasing money? I’d love to hear about your experience – tell me in the comments below!

Keep on seeking your wild and free,



Hi, I’m Becky!

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For heart-centered entrepreneurs

  • Getting Back To Your Wild and Free
  • Chasing Money: How To Monetize Your Wild
  • What Does Wild Mean To You?


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